Day 1 - Let the Detox Begin

I think that deciding to blog about the food thing is aiding in my resolve; I've wanted to ditch this project several times today already, but I felt embarrassed to quit before I've begun.

When I woke, I felt exhausted and I had a headache; probably the result of my late-night snacking on potato chips (a rare treat around here) and low-fat ice cream drowning in chocolate syrup and covered with peanuts. After getting my oldest out the door for school, I went back to bed.

I don't care, I thought.

When I got up the second time, after a fitful sleep full of very strange dreams, including a recurring frustrating sex episode where I keep getting interrupted, I almost reached for the sugar cereal because it was quick and mindless. But I forced myself to make a good breakfast (well, what I know works for my body, anyway).

Here's what I had:

One slice of whole wheat toast (real whole grain, not the fake stuff) with some spray butter
One container of Weight Watchers yogurt
10-12 raw almonds
One huge glass of water
One multi-vitamin
One fish-oil supplement
One calcium supplement

Then I sat down to begin this blog.

About an hour ago, I ate this:

One piece of low-fat string cheese
One small green apple
Water

And now, I have a splitting headache, and I desperately want a cookie.

I'm breaking out in a sweat; I can't focus. My head is pounding and I'm tired and sleepy.

I warned the kids already (the two who haven't yet started school) that today was going to be a lazy, do-nothing day, just so they aren't expecting much from me. I've done this a hundred times; I know the drill. I will be nasty and cranky. I am disgusted with myself, and I will try to take it out on them.

I did manage to get a load of laundry in, and, of course, I'm blogging. I won't let myself lie around all day, but at some point, it will be very tempting.