Getting my Groove Back

Okay. So... here's the deal.

I am in Week 3 of my "try to ease into it" phase of food management.

The goal is to move my body a little more, and eat a little bit better, without the commitment to a full-on recovery plan, which I know I'm not ready to make.

I have attended 5 consecutive scheduled classes at the gym without a miss. My instructor notices and comments. My runs are coming along, and my distance is getting closer to my previously consistent 4.5 miles.

I am packing salads and eating at least one really healthful meal each day, with lots of fruits and veggies. Still snacking a little too much.

My weight is stable and maybe creeping down at a snail's pace, but the fact that I've stopped the uphill climb is a victory in itself.

My stomach feels puffed up and my muscle-tone is like jello.

It's a game of chance - what will push me over that edge to a commitment this time? A date? A trip? A number on the scale? The unkind three-way mirrors at Nordstrom?

Motivate Me

I'm sheepishly posting this after midnight, as though I can sneak in quietly when no one is around and admit my shortcomings in the dark.

Let's just put it on the line... 10 pounds found their way back onto my body.

I have lots of reasons and excuses. None of them matter.

I'm not sure if I'm really ready to commit to this again, but I'm hoping that a public post will give me a kick in the butt and get me going again.

I'm on the fence - I just know it. What is the magic that moves me?